Running is hard. Running is harder than it’s ever been (if you can actually call it running at all) and I’m really struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel (there’s going to be a light isn’t there…please tell me there’s going to be a light??)
I’ve moved on from the run/walk strategy. It was good while it lasted, mostly because it took the huge pressure off hitting a pace I was vaguely happy with rather than my foot, but it had to end at some point. In all honesty I hadn’t planned to end it quite as soon as I did but it was actually snowing in London and my blood is 100% southern so, you know, I get cold and running is quicker than walking. I didn’t dare look at my watch.
Of course after I had transitioned to continuous running there was no way back, you don’t make progress by taking steps backwards, and so for the last 2 weeks I’ve been shuffling around London trying to remember how to be a runner again. It was hard and it was scary and it wasn’t particularly enjoyable. I didn’t know why I was doing it.
The last two Saturdays I’ve made an appearance at my local Parkrun on Tooting Common. Running with other people helps me to forget that I’m running and that I’m finding it hard, Parkrun is the perfect place to learn to run again. It feels kinda safe.
The only problem was trying to run a Parkrun without running as fast as I could, that was another new one on me. Being much slower than I usually am is difficult to deal with, but I have been enjoying running again and that was the whole point. You’re ace Parkrun, thank you!
You can’t be at the top of your game all the time, there will always be times when you’re just a little bit rubbish. But you don’t make progress by hiding away and doing nothing about it, you have to get out the door, suck it up and do it. So that’s what I’m doing. I’ve also never got as much Strava kudos for so many rubbish runs so THANK YOU for making me feel better about it, it really does help.
I will get faster and I will get back to the top of my game but, for now, I need to suck it up and plod on. Joy.
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Wishing you luck and joy in the experience tomorrow, a good light at the end of the tunnel. Coming back is very hard, the mindset can be almost harder than the physical – the fear, the having to reset expectations. Stay strong!
Thank you! It’s definitely the mental side that’s wearing me down but I’m getting there 🙂